I’ve been fighting it for a long time now, and there are times that i “forget” or ignore it. It has, is and will be big part of my life and I should always acknowledge that and deal with it. Here are the writings that are relate to my Fight with Fibro, some posts will be entirely about it & in some it may just be a passing matter.
It’s been a great Sunday so far, ventured into Bukit Gasing and pushed myself harder than I have in years and I feel incredibly proud of myself.
Achievement Unlocked.
Over the past week the first thing that I see when I wake up is a poster, and on that poster is a line that does like this:
“Going in one more round when you don’t think you can – that’s what makes all the difference in your life.” Rocky
I’ve been pushing myself over the last week, I’ve been trying new things, I’ve been focusing and most importantly I’ve been exercising. From basic 1.5km walks I pushed on to 3.33km, and then 4.5 km the day after followed by 4.8km and then today 5.6km through Bukit Gasing, which was incredible difficult. I found myself scared many times during the trail, it wasn’t easy and there were times I wanted to give up, but every time I would refocus myself and calm down, take a breather and push forward. I didn’t plan to go into Bukit Gasing, it was a spur of the moment thing during what was intended to be a chilled 5km walk.
I’m glad I did it, I really am. I keep surprising myself and most importantly, I’m showing the Fibromyalgia who’s in charge. I’ve been walking consistently at 8ish, getting myself 8 hours of sleep, I’ve been practicing better sleep hygiene (is it even called that?), I’ve been making it a daily goal to do something new, whether it’s trying a new cafe or going on a new trail, just anything new, and I’ve been feeling good. It hasn’t been all perfect but I’m working on it, and it’s been a good good week.
The greatest thing to happen over the last week is my exercising. It has filled me with energy, confidence and endorphins. It’s come to a point where I look forward to my workouts. I’ve been trying twice a day, and it’s been doing wonders. Of course there are the body aches, and they come with Fibromyalgia fuelled vengeance in the mornings, and the only reason I managed to fight them and get up out of bed is the fact that I wake up to that Rocky quote and also some other reading I’ve been doing, but the main motivation has been the quote. And truly, every time I’ve gone in that extra round when I didn’t think I could make it at first, I think of the quote and I push myself harder, I focus on being positive and I consciously change my thinking from “I don’t think I can” to “just do it”.
Yes I know this sounds cheesy and all that, but it’s truly been an enlightening week, and I’m going to follow through on that this week. I’m going to take a break tomorrow by just doing a 3km run, I’m not going to have a compete rest day because I don’t want to disrupt this momentum, and honestly I don’t want to rest, I actually want to do 6km at least tomorrow, but I’ve got to think and refuel.
Over the next week i’ll push further by focusing on being more responsible at home, focusing on academics and reading, following on from the great week.
Good day readers,
Today didn’t start well at all, but like yesterday, I adapted and did what I could and am will continue and do what I can, so when I was thinking about what to write today for Tuesday Inspirations, I thought why not write about how I Keep Moving Forward.
My week is primarily divided into 2 categories, good days and bad days. There are days that I wake up fine, but there are days where I wake up feeling heavy, foggy and in pain. That’s how I’ve been living for the a while now in my fight against Fibromyalgia and I happy to say that I’ve come to a point where the good days outnumber the bad, which was the complete at the start of the year. During that time good days were rare. Why? Because during that time, they period of my life, I had given up fighting, I had given up trying to move forward, I let the Fibromyalgia reign without resistance, at that point not only was my body broken, but more importantly, my spirit as well.
Every time I look back at the starting months of the year, I realise how far I’ve made it so far, and let me tell you this, it’s a damn good feeling. Yes, I still have bad days, like yesterday and this morning, but I keep myself moving forward, no matter how little, it is always better than nothing.
So here’s a list of 6 things I do to keep myself moving forward and improving my state of mind (helps me feel better)
1. I spend the first waking hour alone, just thinking. Thinking about how far I’ve come, how far I can go, what needs to be done & what I can improve on. I call it my Holy Hour.
2. I spend time reading a set list of articles everyday, sometimes more than once. It’s a collection of blogs, articles & excerpts, which I have so “creatively” called Daily Reading. These readings motivate me, nourish my spirit and remind me of where I want to go. Below is part of my current Daily Reading list.
– my current 30 day improvement guide (just make a list of things you want to implement, improve, change etc)
– Robin Sharma’s 60 Tips for a Stunningly Great Life
– 71 Things You Can Do to Improve Your Life
– 30 Ways to Look and Feel Great in 30 Days
3. I get some exercise done, whether it’s taking Stitch for a 30 minute walk (good days), a 5 minute swim or even walking up & down the staircase a few times (bad days), every little bit counts. It’s always better to do a little exercise than none at all.
4. Practice. Over the last few months I’ve been taking vocal lessons, and after I sing, especially when I’m on form, I always feel better than I was. So not only does practice help me improve my voice, tone etc, it also makes me feel a lot better.
5. Just do it. Just get cracking on you’re to-do list, start with the easier ones, and as you keep going you’ll build momentum to tackle the bigger tasks which will lead to the completion of goals. Of course for this you’re going to already need a list of goals and to-dos that are in-line with the goals, so you might want to get cracking on that during you’re own Holy Hour.
6. Accept pitfalls and work around them. Yesterday I planned to wake up at 9am and get on with my day, I woke up late. Instead of beating myself up for waking up late, I adapted and rescheduled my day, and you know what, I got quite a bit done. I can say that yesterday was more a good day than bad.
It’s been a while since I’ve written something, and during the short hiatus, aside from the weekend, I felt quite unproductive.. Lost at times, like i was sleep walking. I guess my writing helps me keep focused on where I wanna go, plus it gives me a sense of satisfaction, if that makes sense.
So today i’m back at Starbucks Monash, Café Mocha next to me and a Nazrin in front of me testing out the Bose QuietComfort 15. Feels good to be back here, in the very environment where I wrote more of my best pieces, there’s just something about this place, this is by far my favourite Starbucks. Yesterday the Fibromyalgia beat me, but today I’m back. It’s an on going fight, and I ain’t giving up anytime soon.
On to today’s topic, over the weekend my sister & I went down to Singapore and had a great time with Harveen, Komal & Gayatri. It was a well spent weekend, Universal Studios Singapore , Harry Potter exhibition, lots of beer, good food and bonding. The last time I went to Universal Studios Singapore I tried out the Transformers ride which was a bug step for someone who never goes on roller coasters and such, and this time around I took another step forward by going on The Mummy ride, it was scary but it was also a lot of fun, one of the highlights of the trip. So anyway, the last weekend has spurred me to try and do something new/adventurous/fun/memorable every weekend, essentially to out more living in my life, whether it’s a road trip, or a family day playing board games, or trying new food or watching the sunrise/sunset with loved ones.
Have you ever sat down and asked yourself, what the hell did I do last week? How did I spend the last month? What have I been doing with my life?
There have been to many times when I’ve felt like i was sleep walking through life, that I was in a coma, that I was one of the Walking Dead.
There are just too many times I’ve let the weekend slip away, i have quite a bit of free time and there are so many things I could be doing that I am not.
Life is meant to be lived and explored, it’s not meant to be a series of repeated actions day-in day-out.
Life is about creating moments that you will cherish, moments that will enrich you life.
Yes we all have obligations and responsibilities, but that doesn’t mean you shouldn’t live.
For those who work really hard over the week, take one day of the weekend to refuel and get to that much needed rest you so desire and spend the other day living life. This is an essential part of being productive and not having regrets as you lay on your death bed. There are so many things we can do, and if you say, well money is an issue, I never said anything about doing expensive things, living life doesn’t exclusively mean flying sound the world, it can be doing simple things with the people you love, enjoying your time on this planet, going to the beach, watching the sunset, enjoying a bottle of wine in the garden with family and friends, or even even spending some time on your own by going for a walk, hike, road trip by yourself. A lot of the time, the best ways to spend our time is right under our noses.
When’s the last time you got the family together and played charades or taboo? When’s the last time you tried out a new restaurant? When’s the last time you went on a road trip?
These are the times you should be saying You Only Live Once (YOLO) to encourage you to expand your life, not diminish it. I find that too many people abuse YOLO to do stupid things, but I guess that may just be my opinion.
You Only Live Once, So Put More Living in Your Life. Even the littlest of things can Put More Living in Your Day.
Good Morning, it’s my first day back to class today, unfortunately I woke up later than I planned which messed up my morning routine, couldn’t have my Holy Hour and I’m going to have to rush through this piece. For a while I just wanted to stay in bed, for a I while I asked myself why didn’t I just why did I decide to come back this semester and a few excuses started popping into my head. I got up anyway, off my bed and into the shower and that’s when I realised why i was thinking that way, I was scared.
I’ve been away for more than 7 months and it’s scary getting back to class. What if I fail again? What if I can’t handle the stress and the Fibromyalgia decides to flare up again? What if, what if, what if… Well, I’m never ever going to know when I’ll be fully ready to get back, I’ve spent the last few months trying my best to get to this point, so let’s see what happens. I’ll never know what will happen if I just stay under the covers.
I need to believe that I’ll be fine and organise myself to stay on track. Sleeping early, getting up early, eating healthy, laughing, studying and all that jazz. All that is going to be more important now than before, to keep me moving forward. To further propel me as I enter the next phase of my Second Coming.
Yes today didn’t start as planned, but I’m here now, I’m writing now, I’m on track for class, sure I didn’t get my Holy Hour, I’ll learn from the mistake and correct it. Mistakes will happen, not everything will go according to plan, I’m just happy that I adapt and made the nest of the time I had before class.
Yup I’m scared, because once I enter that lecture hall, it all becomes real, I will be back at uni, and in the back if my mind will be that fear that I might fail again. But as I wrote sometime back,
Facing Fears = Power
Good morning everyone,
For a change I’m writing from the Starbucks at Gardens, but still with my cafe mocha.
Today is a big day for me, I hope it all goes well.
On that note, I want to talk about the power that you get once you face your fears, once you’ve completed that task that you have been resisting. I’m actually pretty scared now, I’m going for a job interview after this, to get a sales position at Machines, hopefully Machines Gardens. I’m scared because I have never done this before, this is new to me. Have never had a real job before. Thoughts have been popping into my head. “what If I can’t do it?” “what of I don’t get it?” “do I really want it?””I can still cancel” “I don’t have to do it” bla bla bla.
But you know what, I want this job, It is a step in the right direction, I want to learn how an apple reseller works, so that maybe i can have my own franchise one day, I want to sell Apple products because I am passionate about them, I want the experience as i want to continue to grow but most importantly, I want to move forward. It’s been a great productive 5 weeks, and I want to continue that flow. I’ve been writing, reading, sleeping well, exercising, dabbled in investing, meeting people etc. I think I’ve mentioned before, this feels like my second coming.
All those questions and doubts, were coming from a place of fear, fear of failure, fear of the unknown. And I will face that fear because once its done…. It will give me power and confidence.
For example, yesterday I finally met a lecturer that I’ve been meaning to meet for a while, I put it off for so long cause I was scared, intimidated, worried etc etc. I was afraid I would mess up the meeting, but finally, yesterday, i just did it. I took the elevator up and met her and you know what? It was a great meeting. She has pointed me in the right direction to sort out my issues reading my Accounting Major and I have a meeting with the Director of Undergraduate Studies today. Hopefully she will be able to help me solve my problem. I’ve been procrastinating for so long simply because I didn’t want to face the fear of not being able to pursue Accounting, or having to delay my graduation by another semester and all those things. The phrase “Ignorance is Bliss” comes to mind, but ignoring the problems isn’t going to make them go away. No. That require conscious effort. Sometimes we run away from our fears so that we can pretend they’re not there, I sorry, but it’s time to wake up.
“I know of no more encouraging fact than th unquestionable ability of a human being to elevate their life by conscious endeavour.” Henry David Thoreau
So today, I’ve got two big steps to take, my first real job interview and a meeting at university. Both are big steps. And I am scared, but I’m not going to run away from this challenge. I will face it
And whatever happens, I will face that as well. If I don’t get the job so be it. If the meeting doesn’t go well I’ll extend my studies by another semester because failure is inevitable in the journey of life, you just have to make sure that the failure doesn’t stop you from moving forward. I’ve had enough of being scared, how about you?
“Fail Faster. Succeed sooner.” David Kelley
“Screw-ups are the mark of excellence.” Tom Peters
“twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn’t do that by he ones you did.” mark twain
“the real risk lies in risked living.” robin sharma
Again i know it’s been a while since i’ve posted and i apologize, i am working to make this a more regular thing.
Today I’m going to talk about Belief, not religious beliefs but Believing in yourself.
“Belief, strong belief, triggers the mind to figure out ways and means and how-to.”
The lack of self-belief is plaguing us.There are so many of us that are scared to exit our comfort zones, so afraid to leave it because you might fall or get scratched. All because society has tabooed mistakes & failure, (largely due to flawed fundamentals of education systems, but that’s for another day) making it seem that in order to be successful and live a good life, one cannot fail, one cannot make mistakes. This goes on to lead people into confining themselves to the “Known” so that they minimize the risk of failure. But what most people do not seem to understand is that we are human and we will make mistakes. Mistakes is the fundamental ingredient in success, progress and greatness.
Richard Branson. Steve Jobs. Thomas Edison.
What is life if you do not experiment and learn? Better yet, what would life be like if everyone confined themselves in their comfort zones? The human race would not be where it is now. BIll Gates and Steve Jobs would now have gone to form Microsoft and Apple. Henry Ford would not have mass manufactured the car. Slavery would still be a norm. Columbus would have never discovered the ‘New World’ and the list would go on. The conclusion being that we would have never progressed, that we would still be hunting animals and living in caves, if we would have even made it that far.
WD-40 stands for Water Displacement, 40th attempt, they failed the first 39 times.
Mistakes help us learn, failure makes us stronger, it weeds out the weak. The most successful amongst us are the ones who fail the most; the difference is that they didn’t let failure paralyze them into fear, they picked themselves up, dusted themselves off and kept going. These are the people who end up being great, the “Crazy Ones”. They aren’t afraid of falling in the mud, of entering new areas, they aren’t afraid to learn and push the boundaries of what they already know. The reason that they weren’t afraid is because they believed in themselves and what they were doing.
Persistence. Experimentation. Determination.
Self-belief is the most important factor in fighting fear of failure. People are afraid to make mistakes because they worry that they will not be able to overcome it. They do not believe that they can handle the potential curve ball that life has been known to throw. They do not believe that they will be able to pick themselves up after what could be a potentially bad fall. They lack the confidence to think that they can do it, and that’s the difference between achieving greatness and mediocrity. That’s the difference between winning and losing, and yea, you may not win all the time even though you believed in yourself but you’re not going to let the loss of one battle make you surrender the war.
“When looking at the most successful people and organizations, we often imagine geniuses with a smooth journey straight to the promised land. But when you really examine nearly every success story, they are filled with crushing defeats, near-death experiences, and countless setbacks.” – Josh Linkner, Fast Company.
Straight From the Heart,
I need to start believing that I will get through this. One semester at a time. This is the next big step in my recovery, in my Second Coming, in strengthening my Will to Keep Moving Forward.
And you know what, I will get through this. It’ll be fine, as long as I don’t lose focus and most importantly, as long as I don’t lose faith in my ability to get through, as long as I don’t stop believing in me. And so what if I fail, I’ve been through worse, from where I was when I left Monash all those month ago and now, ive made quite the turn around. From the broken young man who was ready to just give up, to one who is ready to face his fears, to Keep Moving Forward. As I have mentioned before, I know it won’t be smooth sailings, but as long as i don’t need up like how I was 6/7 months ago, I think I’ll be fine.
Facing my Fear will give me more strength to Keep Moving Forward, easier said than done I know, but doesn’t mean it isn’t true.
And you now what else helped make my day a little better? That my Soy Café Mocha was free today. 🙂
I’m chilling at Starbucks Jaya One, my Café Mocha wasn’t very good and the Baristas corrected that, they made me a fresh Café Mocha and now I’m enjoying it. As I write this, I’m not running at my normal levels, I’ve caught the bug that was distressing my mum and sister, felt it creeping up on me yesterday but no way was I going to miss The Dark Knight Rises. I took some panadol and went forth to enjoy 2 hours and 44 minutes of brilliance.
Last night before I went to bed, I pulled out my iPad and did some personal writing, what I’m calling Bed Time Musings, not exactly like the Holy Hour, but similar. I focus on the day itself and what I can do to make the following day better. That’s when I formulated my Hibernation Plan to fight the bug, I would sleep from 1-6am then wake up for my Holy Hour, then sleep again till noon then wake up to blog etc and then go back to sleep at about 3:30/4 and then wake up at about 7 have dinner and read for an hour, and go back to bed at 10pm. This was my plan to fight the bug, but also feel productive, that even as I was getting much needed rest, I was still being productive. (and so far the plan is on track). But anyway, after I formulated this plan during my BTMs I realised how important my Holy Hours (and now also BTM) were to me. They keep me on track, and since they became less regular, I’ve been less productive, fighting the Fibromyalgia less and sleepwalking through most of my days… Hence, my new priority is to make sure I wake up everyday at 6am, no matter what time in sleep, just for my Holy Hour, and if I need to go back to sleep after and to do my BTM every night, i already feel so much more productive after one day of this, even though I slept from 1am-6am & 7am-1130am. This morning during my Holy Hour I thought about so many things that I’ve been neglecting, so many things that I can improve on and so on, I’ve woken up again from my sleepwalk and am taking control again.
The post-it above speaks volumes. Clarity breeds success,and how to we achieve clarity? By being aware of what we want, and how do we become aware of what we want, what we need? By thinking. Too many of us are sleepwalking through our life’s, not thinking about the path we are taking, or how we can do better. We just go with the flow, just letting life act on us, instead to us acting on life. And why? Because we are unaware of the fact that we are wasting our potential, because we distract ourselves we trivial matters. It’s sort of like being stuck in The Matrix. It’s easier to just go with the flow, sometimes it painful to think about what we should be doing instead of just doing we want to do. Sometimes we just lack the discipline to keep a set time, daily to Think, (A Room of One’s Own). You don’t need to think about the complexities of life, just focus on you, focus on what you need to do to Keep Moving Forward, focus on getting Aware so that you can make the better Choices so that you can see better Results. Take control of your life. Act on life.
I’ve had a lot of fun over the last 2-3 weeks but it could have also had the fun and been productive if I didn’t neglect my thinking time, my Holy Hours. In order to ensure they I don’t go back to sleepwalking, I need to be consistent with my Thinking Times.
My new mission, get my body accustomed to waking up at 6am, make Holy Hours and Bed Time Musings a daily habit.
Good Afternoon readers. How are you guys feeling today? I’m still in recovery mode from the wedding. Muscles are aching, probably from all the dancing, but it was worth it. I just enjoyed some Village Park Nasi Lemak and now I’m sipping on my Soy Café Mocha, thinking. I know I still owe you guys a Saturday post, that will be coming soon. Last week was full of drama, fun, stress, dancing, alcohol, music, excitement and most importantly, love. The union of 2 families over four hectic days. I have to say, that the fun was due in large to the people that were there, sporting, fun-loving and slightly crazy people, but who better to party with and have a blast?
I know a lot of the people involved over the weekend are now feeling the blues, feeling a little jaded, a little hungover maybe? All you have to do is ask yourself, were the events of the weekend worth it? Was the fun and laughter worth the fatigue and blues you are facing now? If yes, then you should be happy that is happened, not sad that it’s over. Reminisce over the memories, laugh about them, meet up with the new friends you made and make more new memories.
For that is life, we need to Keep Moving Forward but never forget to enjoy the journey.
On a totally separate note, I’m happy to say that I’ll be going back to uni on the 23rd 🙂
Good Morning everyone! Today is feeling like a good day, feeling a little tired, but nothing that will trouble me much, woke up without pain and I woke up at 7am. Didn’t go for a swim, that’s the aim for tomorrow. 🙂 feeling pretty damn good this fine morning, looking forward to work at 10, am at Starbucks with my temporary companion Soy Café Mocha.
So I think I can say that I’ve made it out of the Storm, it was a trying two weeks but I made it, and I’m back on track to bring back on track. Haha. Thank you to everyone who supported me and helped me brace the storm and get out of it and I’m sorry to the people I hurt while bracing myself.
Onward to today’s piece.
I am a strong believer than the most important person in one’s life, is oneself. Why? Because if I can’t take care of myself, how can I take care of others? How I can i lead when I can’t even lead myself? How can I help others I care about if I can’t help myself?
I’m not saying don’t care about others, I’m saying that remember that you are equally, if not more, important than the people who love and care for. So make sure you do justice to your life before worrying about others. Now, please don’t take this as my blessing to go become a self obsessed, egomaniac whose entire world revolves around oneself. Just make sure you take are of yourself before you got out of your way to help others. That may work for a while, but in the long run it’s not sustainable and it’s not the way to live your life.
I’m the type of person who cares very much about my family and friends, I empathise withheld they go through, I try my best to really listen to them and I’m there for them to the best of my ability. I can confidently say that I’m a great friend 90% of the time, and if you can find someone from my inner circle who will say otherwise, I will retract that statement. I care very much for my family and friends, and most of them reciprocate, but there are some who I feel take me for granted and this would affect me and stress me, that is until yesterday when a very wise man said to me, “why are you being so stupid? Why let it affect you?”. And that’s when it hit me… I was being stupid, why was I putting so much effort into something what was mostly one way?
“I use to care, now I don’t.” – A Wise Friend
There’s only so much we can do, and once we’ve done our best, all we can do is watch.
“Let one live their life & learn from their mistakes. What we should worry about is making sure, we as a person, keeps on the right track.” – Another Wise Friend
Care for people as much as they care for you, care more if you want but as long as it isn’t counter-productive to you.There are plenty of people in my life who deserve my love and care, and for those who haven’t been doing their part, don’t expect me to call. I’ve had enough.
Good evening guys, I apologise for the tardiness of last weeks reflection.
Looking back at the previous week, reflecting, It could have been better. It wasn’t a very good week. The fibromyalgia was kicking my ass and there were times I felt like I was going insane. Times i thought that i was going to end up the same before. Reminds me of the article I wrote, iClouded.
I’m upset that I didn’t blog as much. I’m disappointed that i didn’t wake up early everyday, followed by a swim. I’m let myself down by not going to work. And most of all, I’m heartbroken for the way I reacted on Thursday with regards to my sister and brother, especially my sister. I am so sorry for the way I acted towards her, she didn’t know what I was going through.
“It’s not what happens to you in life, it’s what you do about it.” W. Mitchell
“whether I fail or succeed that’ll be no man doing but my own. I am the Force.i can clear any obstacle before me or I can get lost in the maze. My choice. My responsibility; win or lose only I hold the key to my destiny.” Elaine Maxwell
It may not have been much of a productive week, as the weeks before, but on the plus side, I did get some good rest and realised that it took 6 weeks for the Storm to kick-in instead of 2. And I have been feeling better over the past 2 days. Should be back in action tomorrow. I did get some reading done. Also, I did have some great fun. Attended the Starbucks Summer Party which was awesome, went to the BSKL British Summer Fair with my friends yesterday and it turned out to be a pretty fun afternoon/evening.
I guess I just needed a break, there was a point I guess when I should have eased off the ‘gas’ a little, maybe I could’ve extended my run to 7/8 weeks, but that’s the next goal. I had a misstep last week, a little stumble, a speed bump, now it’s time to learn from it, pick up whatever I can no Keep Moving Forward. So I guess I’m happy about the previous week, reminded me of humanity, that life, progress and success isn’t a straight full-throttle shot to the top, it’s like climbing up mountains, step at a time, trying not to make mistakes but leanings from them when they do occur. And following on from this, this is why we need to reflect, to ensure that all the hard work we do and sacrifices we make are worth it, that after toiling and climbing, shedding blood, sweat and tears, that we make sure that we are in line with our goals and that we are climbing the right mountain.
“you can’t get to the top of Everest by jumping up the mountain. You get to the mountaintop by taking incremental steps. Steep by step you get to your goal.” Robin Sharma
That’s why we should reflect, because we all want our work and effort to not be in vain. We want to reach our goals and not take a wrong turn along the way, or if we do take a wrong turn to correct out path and get back on track. That’s why we reflect. That’s why we set up a A Room of One’s Own, that why we set aside to think. To not only brainstorm and come up with amazing ideas, but to make sure that after all the bullshit and detours, that we reach the summit of the certain mountain, that you enjoy the moment and not be in disappointment and regret.
There is nothing so useless as doing efficiently that which should not be done at all. ~Peter F. Drucker
I hope you don’t mind that I’m diverging from the usual mo of blogging in the mo, but it should only be today, but not diverging too much, I’m enjoying my Café Mocha at this new Starbucks. The Café Mocha is ok, but not as good as the one I had at the Centrepoint branch.
On to today’s piece,
Before the last few days I’d been enjoying much progress and smooth sailing. There wasn’t much of the slowness, or the brain fog, or the tiredness or the muscle aches… But I knew they would return, it was only a matter of time. It usually took 2 weeks before these symptoms came back with a bang, but this time around I enjoyed 6 weeks of bliss. 6 great weeks of progress, and smooth sailing. And I’m happy for it. Yes I’m in The Storm now, but I just have to hold on and get through it. Just need to brace myself and not let the pain and tiredness take control. Unlike the time before my spirit has been reignited and I’m willing to fight. Before I would have 2 good weeks and then get hit by The Storm and would give in to it. But not this time.
Yes I’m tired, yes I’m waking up in pain, yes my brain feels clouded and slow, but I’ll fight this time. Life is never going to be all smooth sailings, there will be times you need to brace for impact and other times when times couldn’t be any better. Enjoy it all, learn from it all, experience it all. For it is all part of life.
Yea it’s not easy, but then again all things that are worth it aren’t easy to get, are they? I’d rather die trying to get out of this storm than resign myself to living with it and let it limit me. No. Not again. Never again. I will continue to live or die trying.
So now, I will continue to wake u as early as I can, sleep at a regular time, swim the mornings I don’t feel too tired and keep writing, because this writing helps me and thank you for reading. Hopefully within this week I’ll be able to tell all of you that i made it out of this Storm and will embark on the next part of progress.
Good Morning everyone, I really hope you’re having a better morning than me.
I’m not feeling too great today, actually feeling really tired and my mind feels all clouded and cluttered. Could only swim for 8 minutes this morning and getting out of bed at 7 was so hard even though I went to bed before 10 last night.
I’ve been feeling more tired this week, and today is the worst. Feels like one of my normal days during early this year. Tired, in pain, fatigued, clouded. I couldn’t make it to work today. I feel slow, feel like crap, the world has lost a little of it’s colour, but only a little. I’ll bounce back from this soon 🙂
I’ve actually been expecting the for some time, this is the sort of cycle i’ve been going through for the last 2-3 years, but usually it would be a max of 2 good weeks and then I would enter this sort of slump, but this time it took 6 weeks! Which is a great improvement. I could look at this and say, “oh no, why has this got to happen, why do I even try?”, but I won’t. This tired phase will last a couple of days, just my body’s way of asking for a break, plus some of my supplements have finished, so that could be contributing to this.
But anyway, yes I feel like crap, yes my body hurts and yes my heads feels clogged, but the last 6 weeks have been worth it. If I keep this up, maybe the next time will be an 8 week run before the slump kicks in. but whatever it is, I’ve made progress and will continue to make progress. Just need to get through this little slump and get on the next wave. I know I can, I will.
I’m sorry if the post seems a little messy, that how my mind feels right now. But this won’t last long, it won’t stop be Revival. This is just a little speed bump. Just need to get some good rest, wait for my new batch of supplements to come in and in the mean time, I’ll continue to try my best to get up by 7 and go to bed by 10. I hope I can go to work tomorrow.
Of course when you’re on the right path, there are going to be hard times, difficult times, speed bumps, but don’t let that ,stop you. I’m not. Because its not how hard you can hit, but how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. Courtesy of Rocky. Don’t give in. Don’t give up.
And I’m going to Keep Moving Forward
Anyway, that’s all for today folks.
Sorry if this weeks writing has disappointed.
arkaysthoughts 